So I was thinking the other day about my life and the things that were missing from it... I realized that I am well liked and know a ton of people. When I make friendships they are the long lasting kind. But at the same time I have very few people super close to me...I am talking my husband and maybe one other person. I don't think this is the way God intended relationships. It is true that we only have a certian amount of time and energy for just a small number of people. But then again love always requires sacrifice. If it were easy then it wouldn't be worth as much in the end. If God promises to not give us more than we can handle and it is required of us to love people and build relationships then I guess it is His job to take care of the time and energy required and ours to be willing to sacrifice. Just like most things God asks of us all of this ends up to our benifit. Imagine that!! It is my conclusion that we are selfish and want a gaurentee on our sacrifice....is it (or he or she rather) worth what I have to give up. Wasn't it David that said 'I won't give sacrifices that cost me nothing.'(paraphrase) I don't think we do this knowingly but our most harmful attacks from the enemy happen when we are unaware.

I have to admitt I didn't come to these conclutions from actually practicing what I preach and being enlightened, no I looked around one day in crisis and had noone I trusted with my bare heart. Noone that I had put in sacrificed time and energy to be there when I needed the same. Trust is a hard thing gain and so easily lost.

It is hard to even know where to begin. I guess with one oppertunity at time.