Thank you Margo...I can't believe you randomly caught my one blog in well forever.

Today what's on my heart has to do with relying on people. I have a friend who can't say no to anyone so she tends to get bitter when doing whatever for well,everyone. I can say no. Honestly, I try to say yes because I geniunly want to help people and am honored that they want my help in some wierd way I guess. So if someone needs me to watch there kid it really isn't a big deal or drop something off or help with an event or whatever, but if I just can't I say no and don't really feel bad about it. This friend of mine feels like people should try to take care of there own stuff at all cost before involving anyone else. I just don't think I agree. I mean yes take care of business and don't depleat all your resources, but why not rely on your friends to help you out if they can. I mean they can say no just like you can say no. If you don't give people oppertunities to help you then you become an island and we just weren't created for complete isolation and independance. I think freedom is being able to help people and not feel bitter about it or not help people and not feel guitly. I guess knowing your limits and loving people. Being good to yourself makes you better for others...not selfish. Jesus didn't help everybody. He passed by beggers everyday. He took time for himself to pray and regroup. Was He selfish or self aware?I think in the end it is important to help when we are suppose to help. and that requires us to be plugged into the pulse of God.

There is more on my mind but it probably shouldn't be on the world wide web. Although I am tempted...Those of you who know me(which is probably only my one viewer Margo) know it is hard to keep my mouth shut when I feel strongly or am hurt, but I will resist.

until next time