working thru

Today I read several scriptures on clay. I am the clay. As I put it together in my mind God is reminding me that every part and circumstance in my life was His doing and it was purposeful. Just as He has free will He gives me free will too. I always have the choice to follow and He has the choice of what to do with me regardless. He is patient and deals with me as a father and wants me to make good choices for His own glory. Earlier today I was listening to the song "I loved her first" by heart land. It is a country song and a real heart clincher about a man giving his daughter away in marriage. This song gave me mix emotions. I can't help but be reminded of not having an earthly daddy who loved me first and did all the special things that a father does with his daughter. This makes me sad, but God worked in my life in such protective, loving, tender ways and was glorified because I did not have the ideal. Then I thought of my daughter who should be here close to Christmas and how special her life is going to be because she will have an earthly daddy, and God will be glorified in that too. He knows what we need. He knows what He is doing and He should not be doubted. He is good, all the time! Lord, forgive me when I can't see the why. When I look at you and am bewildered. Help me Lord to trust you and remember I am clay. That is actually pretty freeing. I mean the clays waits to be formed into what ever it is that he is to be, but the potter He does all the work.

She is a she!! Olivia Jewell Nix should be arriving to bless us all close to Christmas Day. The doctors say everything is going well. Her profile already looks like Kelly! Well she may have my long nose. It is hard to tell really, but she already makes us so happy.