Funny how people move on....

So I was at the store (my mother in-law's that I manage) and an old jr. high teacher, Mr. Alfer, came in. I got his attention and was talking to him and then I realized he didn't remember me. I wasn't insulted just suprised. To me, him and his algebra class were pivital for my whole high school math enlightenment. He really helped me a lot in jr. high and he was also a believer who showed it to us, a mentor in more ways than one I guess. 'Time marches on' and so do we I suppose.

Romance Junky

So before I was married I didn't really think I was that much of a romantic. Boy was I wrong. I just finshed watching 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'. I know those butterflies the girl feels when the boy looks at her in 'that way'. I love that feeling. Kelly, my husband, is sweet as pie, but tends to take this part forgranted. So do any of my readers remember your first kiss from the love of your life? Lets hear it!!

Mine and Kelly's was on our second date. I had cooked him dinner and we watched a movie. When I walked him down to leave we talked and then hugged and then just kinda lingered in the hug position ahhh then he went in for the kiss. I was nervous. I didn't know what to expect and I was definately falling for this guy......I love him so much.

Man, Christmas is tomorrow!

Well maybe not for you but it is for me!heheh. Kelly and I are celebrating Christ's birth with my family tomorrow and his the next day and part of Christmas. My nephew is so cute. He will be 13 next month and he is so excited about the season. It reminds me of when I was a kid and would stay up all night in my closet (closest place to the living room) wanting to disprove santa. It was fun. I kinda get caught up in the hussle and bussle of Christmas that I lose the mystery that Dylan still has. Now granted much of that is b/c he likes to open presents, but he is giving them too.

A little on the subject, what do you think about Santa Claus. I mean do you believe that the mystery is something that kids charish and creates good memories and traditions or do you believe he is a lie and you should never lie to you kiddos? I really don't know. I'm working it out for myself. I have many college friends that believe the whole thing to be the same as a hurtful lie, with the possible same affects. I want to know what you think.

Update: I don't know all the details but subject from last blog will be getting her kids next week. I was mostly venting. The truth is I get pretty jaded working here,a lot of people use the system-can you believe that, so when I see something that I truly believe is an injustice I can get worked up. Thank you guys for your imput.

Ya know what sucks?

The legal system. I'm here at the shelter, where I work, and just talked to a lady who got her kids taken away and given to her abuser. I spent at least an hour with her the other night listening to her story. She is definately abused. I mean classic stuff like he kept her isolated from her family, controlled her spending, kept all the finaces a secret, she was under his thumb. I don't even remember why she finally left, but he had the money, not her, and got a good attorney. She has an attorney that is so focused on the fact that he won't really get paid that he doesn't seem real interested in helping her. I didn't think the court would keep her kids from her. I wish I could tell you the extreem details to her story, but b/c of confidentiality that would be inappropraite. So b/c of things that happened in her life 5 years ago the court didn't think she was stable enough to have her kiddos. Did I mention she has been there nurse there whole life(genetic stuff). She is doing all she can to try and get them home. The system is not on her side. It is on the side of the person, right or wrong, that has the all mighty dollar....and it makes me sick! (the last time I tried to spell check it erased my stuff, so deal with the mistakes!)

You Don't Know Me!

I've been thinking a lot about this post. This past year has been a winding roller coaster with high highs and low lows. I've been so excited and elated and I've been depressed and beat up. After I got married (a high high) you, probably someone who cares deeply for me, gave me space to adjust to married life, which was a kind thing to do. Time went by and I got busy or distracted being self focused and never re-connected with you, and therefore have gone thru the ups and downs of this ride alone. As I reflect on this I realize that you too had ups and downs on your own roller coaster and I wasn't there for the ride.

Although I am unwilling to spill my guts and rehash the past with you I am willing to start again. I love do overs, don't you? I love the chance I have to do as my savior did and live in community with a special group of people that GOd has gifted me to know and love. So if I invite you for dinner don't say no, don't think about it, just let it happen. I want the chance to know you and to allow you to know me, which is hard for me sometimes, and I am sure for you too...but we need each other.